Double jeopardy

I have at times talked about a disease that haunted me for over thirty or more years of my life. Having to live behind a mask that your family and friends knew not of, to find out you were not only hurting them but hurting yourself more than anything. Living in denial is not a healthy thing, especially to yourself. But not only yourself are you hurting, you are hurting all those around you who truly do love you. Drinking can not cure it, illegal drugs wont help it, one must get the help from a health care professional. It can be a silent killer. And the diseases are hereditary, it is called depression and bi-polar. It's called Double jeopardy

Is there a double jeopardy effect in our family history? [ Yes] and it is manic depression and being bi-polar also, and these can not be fixed automatically. These two diseases together are horrible. The bad thing about it is you may be up one day and the next down, its like a roller coaster ride and it can be devastating to you and those around you. I know I live it everyday. You will find that those who do not understand these diseases could care less how you feel. A lot of people thinks it's beyond them to have something wrong with them. I felt that way for years until it hit me like a freight train would hit a parked car on railroad tracks.

There are a lot of macho men and women out there who find it shameful to find out they have something wrong with them. Depression and being Bi-polar is nothing to be ashamed of, it is hereditary the same way as going bald is. It is as serious as having a heart attack, a stroke, or cancer. It will hit you even when nothing triggers it, it makes you do thing to friends and family that you don't even know why. There is one in my family I wish would go get help now, but I don't see it happening until something drastic happens. Double jeopardy.

What causes depression?

Although no single cause of depression has been identified, it appears that interaction among genetic, biochemical, environmental, and psychosocial factors may play a role. The fact is, depression is not a personal weakness or a condition that can be willed or wished away, but it may be successfully treated.

Who gets depression?

An estimated 33 to 35 million U.S. adults and young adults are likely to experience depression at some point during their lifetime. The disease affects men and women of all ages, races, and economic levels. However, women are at a significantly greater risk than men to develop major depression. Studies show that episodes of depression occur twice as frequently in women as in men.

Although anyone can develop depression, some types of depression, including major depression, seem to run in families. Whether or not depression is genetic, the disorder is believed to be associated with changes to levels of chemicals in the brain such as serotonin and/or epinephrine.

According to the DSM-IV, major depressive disorder (or "depression") is diagnosed when five or more of the following symptoms of depression are present for most of the day, nearly every day for at least 2 weeks. At least one of the symptoms must be either persistent sad or "empty" feelings or loss of interest in activities.

• Constant sadness
• Irritability
• Hopelessness
• Trouble sleeping
• Low energy or fatigue
• Feeling worthless or guilty for no reason
• Significant weight change
• Difficulty concentrating
• Loss of interest in favorite activities

Be sure to tell your health care professional if you're experiencing any of these symptoms as described by the DSM-IV. Also, tell your health care professional if your symptoms are affecting your ability to function at home, at work, or with family, friends, or colleagues.

Call a health care professional right away if you or your family member has any of the following symptoms, especially if they are new, worse, or worry you:

Thoughts about suicide or dying Attempts to commit suicide New or worse depression New or worse anxiety Feeling very agitated or restless Panic attacks

Trouble sleeping (insomnia) New or worse irritability Acting aggressive, being angry or violent Acting on dangerous impulses An extreme increase in activity and talking (mania) Other unusual changes in behavior or mood

PEOPLE AND FRIENDS, I would hope that if any of you or anyone you know has these, in some way you can get them to seek Professional help. We have tried to show you, who, what,and how to get help for these diseases. Help is only one phone call or office visit away, so if you are having any of these systems, seek medical attention right away. And if you know someone with this don't be ashamed to talk to them about it. It may help them in the long run. I wished I would have known that it was depression and being bi-polar. So friends, lend a helping hand to those who are hurting for it's not a laughing matter. Double jeopardy.

I can not mention the name of those who needs to seek help from these diseases but I would hope they read this and it clicks that they need help right away. There are a lot of young adults
in the world that are not aware and neither are the parents aware of these two diseases. The BI-POLAR, part can cause a lot of grief, it can cause you to fly off the handle for no reason at all, violent episodes can come from this, and again beer can't cure it and illegal drugs won't fix it, get help. Even your family doctor can recognize and diagnose depression and bi-polar disorder and help you.

In addition to the symptoms of depression, bi-polar also causes extreme high and lows. You may have increased energy, not sleeping for very long periods, working at an extremely fast pace, trying to do all the work yourself and then just as suddenly as the feeling started you are plunged the other direction. You get depressed, don't want to do anything. It truly is a roller coaster ride. It's not necessary to suffer and make your loved ones suffer through this when something can be done. These diseases are very real. Medication does NOT alter your thinking, it does NOT alter you, it only balances out those chemicals in your brain that can't balance on their own.

One thing you can do to help yourself is pay attention to when these feelings hit you (triggers). Is there a time of year that you seem worse than others? Is there a word or something you see that makes the symptoms worse? You play a part in helping heal yourself, pay attention to what sends you spiraling up or down, try to prepare yourself for those times. Talk to your doctor, they are there to help you, they treat all kinds of diseases and don't be fooled, these are just as serious as the medical problems mentioned above. Double jeopardy? Yes.

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Shalom and Peace to Israel

GOD is an AWESOME GOD.

I have followed GOD for well over 3/4s of my life, I have seen the high times and low times. GOD is good even more than that, He is great, wonderful, awesome! We have seen over and over again the mighty hand of GOD move in miraculous ways, from healing a young lady that was beaten so bad by her husband that she was paralyzed and told she would never walk again, to fixing a hot water heater in the mist of winter, to fixing a transmission on a car in a tornado, yes it all happened. We have seen the hand of GOD hold off rain for 9 hours by asking him to so we could work. In construction when it rains no work can be done, unless it's indoors, that day when work was over he sent the rain. GOD is an AWESOME GOD.

To know of GOD is great, but to know Him in all of His glory is wonderful. We have seen GOD in all his splendor. The works of his mighty hand. Who can deny it, even you are His handy work. Genesis 1: 27, GOD made you in His own image, male and female. You are made in His image. Look around the world at the different races, there are Japanese, Chinese, Iraqis, Canadians, Americans, Afro-American, Greek, Jews, Israelis, and so on. We are all created in His own image.

It's just a shame not all believe in the ways of GOD, in words, actions and/or deeds. Many different religions believe in many different gods, Isis the goddess of fertility, which Easter is known by. Cedar trees, (Nimrod), animal worship such as back in Egypt, (the golden calf), moon worship, sun worship, man worship more than the true GOD and so on. But, there is only one true GOD and He's an AWESOME GOD.

Out of all the gods in the worlds, (religions), He is the only God you can kick, spit, scream, and curse that you won't lose an ear, tongue, arm or leg in doing so. I believe in one of the countries if you kill a cow. you may lose your life or be stoned. IF you ever get the chance to see the movie, The Apostle, (if you haven't), starring Robert Duvall, you can say, scream, holler, get mad, all you want and your safe.

There are 6 sins and even the seventh is an abomination,
Proverbs 6:16-19 [16] These six things does the LORD hate: yes, seven are an abomination to him: [17] A proud look, a lying tongue, and hands that shed innocent blood, [18] An heart that devises wicked imaginations, feet that be swift in running to mischief, [19] A false witness that speaks lies, and he that sows discord among brothers. These are known as the 7 deadly sin each one stand on it's on. A proud look is as "look at me I am something", a lying tongue is one that lies and constantly lies, hands that work to destroy innocent people, a heart that devises imaginations, or those who lust after forbidden things, such as lusting vain empty imaginations, running to mischief is one who always is stirring up trouble with someone, a false witness who speaks lies about things that are untrue, and a church going brother or sister who constantly is sowing discord and heartache among the church. All these can be forgiven you, they are sins against all.

Matthew 12: 32- Whoever speaks a word against the Son of Man, it shall be forgiven him; but whoever speaks against the Holy Spirit, it shall not be forgiven him, either in this age or in the age to come.

There is only one sin you can not be forgiven, that is Blasphemy of the Holy Spirit or Holy Ghost. Blasphemy is the act of depriving something of it sacred character. Which means denying, speaking against it's very existence, and It being the spirit and power of the most high GOD. By saying there is no spirit of GOD is Blasphemy. By saying that God did not hold His end of the bargain, blaming Him is not blasphemy. You can scream at GOD all you want, blame God all you want, He's probably laughing. GOD is an AWESOME GOD.

By me telling you this, if I be wrong your blood is on my hands, and I mean that, and I will stand accountable if I mislead you. But I am NOT urging anyone to curse GOD YOU MAY SAY THE WRONG THING. Still GOD is an AWESOME GOD.

UNTIL THE NEXT TIME
jesseb's
Shalom and Peace to Israel.

When is enough, enough

As I sit here looking through website after website searching for ways that I could make some money at blogging and other things. Maybe I'm just down right stupid or a moron maybe both. I really want to do many things, when my mind will let me do it. They have books called computer instructions for dummies, maybe they need to publish one for plain ignorant ass people like me, then maybe it would make some sense. I have typed every word possible in every search bar I can find, and the same old crap comes up. Lets use a few examples. I type in to recieve a Government Grant without paying anything, you'll have 20 different web pages you can choose to access, wow, you say to yourself, there ought to be something here, The site sayyyyyssss, FREEEE no money. Well that's cool. Then you open up the first 3 and boom, your hit with the first words, "As seen on CNN, Oprah, Larry King Live, and Msnbc". Wow, these must be legit, NO money or credit card needed, then you sit through their boring ass videos on how to do this and that, every thing still sounds legit, until you get to the bottom and it slaps you in the face Its free just pay $1.95, $2.95 and on some $5.95, for shipping, then wants to know how your gonna pay, you'll need a credit card. Then you go through a couple of more 4 or 5. Starts out the same ass way. AS seen Larry K, and by the time you've read to the K in king you know it's B.S, you get to the bottom, wow, it didn't say anything about money, then it makes sure you need a credit card, for some kind of verification. Then your asking yourself, " Why do I need a credit card?" There's that little white box that says Check if you have read the terms and agreement, AND you best read it before you check. Generally, you are agreeing that after your 14 day free trial is up, you will let so & so company automatically charge your account $29.99 a month, plus a one time prossessing fee of $19.99, and if you want to opt out before your 14 day trial is over, you have to call this number to unsubscribe, or opt out, (p/s keep check of your bank statements).
Are the people of America who wants to make it in the world, really considered so ignorant? I guess they believe we are. Pyramid schemes are supposed to be illegal aren't they? Doesn't this start with 1 person then the next level 2 next level 3 then 4 and so on? Well I being one of them ignorant people of America that they think we are, go back to the internet to look for legitimate online jobs. Well myself, as well as my wife have tried endlessly to find online jobs that will pay. Which some seem somewhat legit, and I really have no problem with them holding out $50.00 a month administration fee. But, the ad says all you need is a computer and the internet, and if that's all you need why do they want to charge you $25.00 for envelopes $15.00 for papers with letterheads and so on? Dam when it enough enough? And then after all that, when we began researching their site, the way it is run, believe me or not it looks just like a pyramid scheme. Then on top of that we check them out on the Better Business Bureau online and they have an "F" rating! I won't say the name here but if anyone wants their name I'll gladly give it to ya. America when is enough enough?
And now I guess my final gripe is online blogging. My wife bless her heart has looked everywhere for something to do to make a little money online. She isn't able at this time to work a full time every day job, right now she is on leave from her job making $20 plus dollars an hour. No, don't feel sorry for us, we don't need pity, we just need a break. I have been declared a looney and told to get on disability, because well never mind ya'll don't need to know our life story. The gripe I have is this too, (blogging), seems no different than online Government Grant websites that say free, or any other online websites that say jobs for free. Well blogging is fun, I have to admit and the one we have found we have joined, yes it free and supposed to be able to make money. Pay this and you go Pro, pay this and you get even more (web tools). Well hellooooooooo out there, we don't have that kinda money as well as countless thousands just like us don't have that kind of money either. We just want the chance to make a small living from doing what we love to do. THAT is read and write blogs for a living. And please one other thing Blog sites please write an instruction book for ignorant folks like me so we can understand the steps we need to take, other than this one, the others take a Master's degree to set up. Well that is my gripe.
People as you can see, the internet really wasn't set up to give out anything free, it's there for people to make money. And if your not intelligent like me, Well you're not gonna get very far and if anyone finds something legitimate here online, that says free and really is free, drop me a line or two. You can find me right here, waiting for my riches and writing my no non-sense, no-sense, no-bs, blogs.

well till next time.

Shalom and Peace to Israel.