When I've gone the last mile

You know they say you can't go back and change things thats happened even 5 seconds ago. But if I could I would suredly try to change a lot of things. They also say you have to live with the cards you are dealt. well if I had it my way, I'd ask for a new hand. Myself as well as countless on thousand upon thousand of people just here in the USA, just like myself, we weren't born on the other side of the tracks as to say, no silver spoon, no ira's, or college funds set aside. no we are the ones who have to fight for everything we got. Christianity in my house was nothing unless it was taking the church for everything they had and then when the well went dry, that's all you heard about church. I guess if it hadn't been for my late, late, grandmother, God rest her soul, I would have never graced the inside of a church building. And I praise the Lord for her.



They say that it's not good to look back on the past, but look to the future, but how can you look to the future when so much of your future is in the past. Growing up in the house I lived in was pure hectic to say at least. Like thousands of other young kids who had broken homes, life wasn't easy, especially when your mother remarrys a man she met in a beer dive. not to say that my real dad, which I never saw with my own eyes (and if I did was to young to remember), I've been told he was in no way a saint himself. Oh well maybe I will get to see him on the other side in new jerusalem, this is my hope and prayer. But as I look back I guess all the beating we endured made us better folk, I guess, I really can't tell.

But just to survive was not in itself easy, taking on different personalities, just to help us make through. we firmly believe that if God hadn't been there with us, we wouldn't be here today. The rule was, kids only spoke when spoken to, dare speak, get beat, then speak, get beat. what a win win situation huh ? Having your every move dictatated was grrrr. having no life was worse, But when Ive gone the last mile I know all will be well. to have to grow up the way we did as a child, and knowing that thousands upon thousands of others had it the same way makes one just break down and cry. It has taken many years for me to shed a tear for anything, or anyone and at times it's still tough to cry. When I lost my mother earlier this year, instead of crying, I felt thank goodness, this is over. Did I love my mom? yes. did I love my mom after all the abuse she and my stepdad put me through, yes but it was and still is tough.

Now that I look back at all the wasted years, what should have been and not should of been in my life, would I still change things? YES, I would. And the first thing would be, that the first time that I met Jesus Christ as my Lord and Saviour, I would have held onto Him for dear life. You see I wasted so many years of being a form of godliness, denyng the power thereof. I knew of Him, but really never knew Him. But now that I know Him and what He was and is capable of doing, I can no longer look back. For today the future is ahead of me. For all the mental, physical, and verbal abuse I grew up with, I have no one else to thank, but God the Father, who brought me through it all. As that old old song goes, I wouldn't take nothing for my journey now. By the help and grace of God I pray that my feet never again slip backwards but walketh forward from this day. That when I have gone the last mile of the way, Jesus will look at me and say these words, "enter in thy good and faithful servant".

Friends, you can make it the last mile of the way also, just trust in Him, Jesus.



til next time jessebs

Peace and Shalom to Israel

p.s. Please when you pray, pray for the peace of Jerusalem

Questions ????? Part 2

From our last blog we said there are a lot of things we do from the cradle to the grave, and we put forth a lot of questions. But there are things far more important than school, college, marriage, children, or divorce. There are a few more important things, such as GOD, Christ, and everlasting life. There are a lot of different beliefs out there and I guess that's what makes the world go around, as the saying goes, different strokes for different folks. That is why GOD lets us choose how and which way we go. He will not force us to serve Him. Glory be to GOD the Father in the Highest.

How many of us can remember the first experience we had with GOD?
How many of us can remember the first time we attended a church service and was overwhelmed by the presence of GOD?
How many of us can remember our first communion, or our first confession?
How many of us can remember our first Lord's supper and foot washing?
Can you remember your very first Vacation Bible School?
Can you remember the first time you went to the altar, and God met you there with open arms?

We can always remember the bad things that have happened to us. But how many good things can we remember that out-way the bad? Murphy once said , What will happen will happen, there's no two ways about it. Life is what we make of it. It is like coming to a crossroad with a 4-way stop and having to wait your turn. We all come to many forks in the road in this thing we call the game of life and it is not always easy to choose the right way to take. But we should always remember that we don't ever have to make that decision on our on. I have always believed that life can throw us curve balls. See, we fight against powers in high places, and no matter how hard we try to do the right things in life the enemy will always be there to throw his monkey wrench into everything he can to keep everyone he can down and out (down trodden) . I do not want to make people think that once you become a child of God, or start serving GOD, it will be a cake walk. He never said that we would get everything on a silver platter, it just doesn't work that way. But we will cover more on this in the following blog, I hope my friends and all will understand where we are coming from. QUESTIONS.

Ephesians 6:12 For we wrestle not against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this world, against spiritual wickedness in high places. This is the answer to the monkey wrench and he knows how to use it well. If satan doesn't have us already he will be trying his hardest, no matter what it takes, to get us. Remember those who he has already he will use to do his handy work. Again we ask, "How many of us can look back and remember any of the questions that have been asked in this blog and remember the better times in life"? I hope we all can. And, if you can't, in our next blog following this one we will show you how you can remember the better days.

Whether it was when you first got married, your first child, the first time you met Christ as your Savior or just the joy you had that you have lost along life's journey. So if you want, check out our following blog for the answer to most of these questions.

until then thanks again jesseb's