Under the Shadow

Good morning, afternoon, or evening what ever time it may be that you read this, if you do at all. As I was watching One of my favorite movies it inspired  me and got me to thinking about a thing or two. I have come to realize in My own life that I have said so many times that I knew Jesus. But when reality hit me I didn't know Jesus at all, I knew of Jesus. If I had of known Jesus I might not have faltered so many times. Some call Jesus ( GOD ), others call HIM the SON, but one thing is for sure, He is one of the Three that makes up the Holy Trinity. For those who do not believe in the trinity theory, that is your prerogative, some think of Him only as a Prophet..but no matter what you think He is, He is the Saviour #1, a Brother#2, and soon to be crowned King of Kings.  Hey the Bible does tell us that the word of God is to NO one man's interpretation, which I guess is alright if the Bible tell us this. Can you say Amen.
There is an old song I have heard all my life just about and it is one that is as dear to me today as it was when I first heard it and didn't quit understand the words. The words to the song goes as this, "I love to tell the story, how a Saviour came from Glory". Brothers and Sisters, I am not a perfect person, I can't stand and say that I have never smoked a cigarette, a joint, or took speed, I can't ever say that a beer or alcohol has never touch my lips, or I haven't ever lusted or coveted anything in my life, and God only knows I can't say that I have never lied. If I had been free from all this maybe God would have taken me like he did Elijah and Enoch. Now that would have been the ultimate prize wouldn't it. But I am not Perfect and will never be, But I do hope to be somewhat found worthy When he splits the Clouds of Glory, to take his Children to be with him forever, in the First resurrection.
As I was listening to the movie that the text of this Blog came from, it derives from Psalms 91 verse 1 -8

<< Psalm 91 >> King James Version 1He that dwelleth in the secret place of the most High shall abide under the shadow of the Almighty.2I will say of the LORD, He is my refuge and my fortress: my God; in him will I trust. 3Surely he shall deliver thee from the snare of the fowler, and from the noisome pestilence. 4He shall cover thee with his feathers, and under his wings shalt thou trust: his truth shall be thy shield and buckler. 5Thou shalt not be afraid for the terror by night; nor for the arrow that flieth by day; 6Nor for the pestilence that walketh in darkness; nor for the destruction that wasteth at noonday. 7A thousand shall fall at thy side, and ten thousand at thy right hand; but it shall not come nigh thee. 8Only with thine eyes shalt thou behold and see the reward of the wicked.

Brothers and sisters, you don't have to live a perfect life, just close to it.  NO man is perfect, and if you see or find a man who seems to think or say he is, stand away, way away, because lightening may strike at any time. Friends family and Bro and Sis there is coming a day that we will face the noisome pestilence, Jesus said we would in Matthew the 24th chapter. If you happen to believe in the rapture, and it doesn't happen, may God help all the souls who took men's word for it, and did not search the Scriptures or let the Holy Spirit show them what is true, and right and just. God is and has always been an equal opportunity God.
I do want you to know that if you should miss the first resurrection, in which the second death hath no power its no one's fault but your own.
The things that Jesus spoke of throughout His time here on earth even though it was so short, He knew what he was speaking. And he left us a promise that was filled in Acts chapters1 and 2, the Holy Ghost. The only thing Jesus did not know and still does not know is the day His Father will turn to him and say, "MY Son it is time, go get MY PEOPLE". You see friends, neighbors, family, Bro and Sis. YOU can't ride the coattails of a Preacher into the KINGDOM of GOD.Wives you cannot ride the shirt tails of your husbands into the KINGDOM of GOD. Children you can't expect to make it in on just what the Pastor,Teacher, Mommy or Daddy told you .
Yes the Bible tells us to train up our Children in the ways they should go. Well Friends one thing we have to realize is this, train them up and turn them over to GOD that's all we can do. He'll do the rest and that's a promise from HIM not I. Friends as I close this blog. DO you know of God or truly Know GOD and all the purpose He has for you? Say that I am right about the end days and we aren't raptured out, will you be found under the shadow of the Almighty God? I truly hope that I am in that day. That is my prayer daily. Amen

Shalom and Pray for the Peace of Jerusalem
til next brain thrust                                                            jesseb

kids kids kids do the strangest things

We've all heard the old saying kids say the darndest things, yeah they also do the strangest, stupidest things at times. I have 3 kids I love very much and an extended family of 3 plus 10 grandkids. Dang I feel so old, lol But they're all good kids I guess, I'll let you know when I get 70 or 75 years old and if they ain't put me in a nursing home by then, they'll all be great kids. My son Matthew is turning 25 this year and when we do talk I love it when he says trust me, I really do he's a good young man. He'll be 25 and getting married in September to a beautiful, smart, warm hearted young lady, she'll keep him in line lol for sure. Then I have an eldest daughter I love very much but don't get to talk to her or my grand kids there very often but I guess she's a good girl also. But I think she's a momma's girl, no offense intended. I have 3 beautiful grand daughters from her and a very handsome grandson who looks to much like his dad,lol, and has killer blue eyes, her husband's a good man too, I Love them so much. And to my problem child she 28 she's an alright kid but has severe issues lol, I have 2 handsome grandsons from her great kids, strange momma, lol

This one is a very strange, strange, and strange girl, Her grandpa used to have this saying I adopted, It's "take my advice, or do what you damn well please". Guess what? Yeah y'all probably figured it out already, she's a do as she damn well pleases, lol. She's a great girl also, she just has this weird saying she says all the time, it's "I wish I'D listened to my dad". Dang it girl how many times have we heard that? uhhhhh 4 or 5 or more, lol. Well you know the Bible says to train up a child in the way he or she should go and when their old they will come back to it, but jeez where did this girl got her training from? I don't remember any of this stuff the way she does, lol. I won't go into details I don't want to embarrass her, so when I say kids do the strangest, stupidest things y'all can read between the lines ok. I'll leave it at that. lol

well by for now jesseb's

Not a dad (open letter to my kids)

I have often talked about being a preacher for so many years, and even though its a part of my past, I can't forget it. Just about everyday, I'm reminded about it. We are only human and we make mistakes some we overcome and some we seem to not be able to let go of. The Bible talks about forgiveness, and that we have to forgive others their trespasses. That's what the word says we must do to be called a child of GOD.

Everyone has skeletons in their closets, and if they say they don't, they are in denial. So I must say that even I have a few skeletons in my past. Somethings are better left in the closet, but sometimes they have to come out to clear the air, especially to clear the air and end misunderstanding and turmoil. Sometimes it just makes things worse. The only perfect people in the world have been taken home already, Abraham and Elijah.

I was far from perfect in my past, and I guess that was even when I was preaching also. As I sit back and try to remember, I think I made a lot of mistakes, they say it's supposed to be GOD, family, then work. In my past it turned out to be work, GOD, then family. Talk about having things backwards that is me. Out of 22 tears of Preaching, I think I might have had it right the first 10 years. We gave GOD 110%, a lot of folks thought we were Jehovah witnesses, because of our beliefs. We didn't celebrate many of the holidays because of their pagan origins: Christmas, Easter, Valentines day, Halloween. We did celebrate the fourth of July, Thanksgiving, and a few others, and yes I robbed my kids of some of the best things and times. Am I ashamed of not celebrating those holidays? No. WHY, because they are some of the hidden truths of the Bible. Still I wasn't a dad.

The reason I say that I may have had it right the first 10 years, is because it was GOD, family work. I worked in construction during that time and had time to be a Dad, plenty of time to serve GOD and be a dad and work. Then I got a job which I thought was a blessing, until I myself turned it into a curse. We worked rotating 3 shifts and an opportunity presented itself to work 16 hours a day, and I took advantage of it. I worked six days a week, 12 to 16 hours a day, then it went to seven days a week. It was WORK, WORK, WORK, and not much time for GOD or family. In my trying to make a living for my kids, so they wouldn't need like I did when I was a kid, I lost my kids. Making sure they had everything, didn't make me the Dad they needed. I missed their childhood. I wasn't a dad at all.

Now today I have to ask my 3 (grown) kids to forgive me for not being there for them in the way they needed me to be. I have to say mostly to my son, (my youngest), I am sorry for not being there all the time I should have been. I know that we did do a few things together, but not enough to be a real Dad, and I truly regret it. I know you hold it against me for divorcing your mom, however, there are things that went on that you'll never know of, and I will go to my grave with it I guess.

To my son, the day I left your mom, I gave up on GOD also, but I never gave up on you. I hope you can truly forgive me. In life it takes two to tango, and it wasn't all my fault, but I DO take my share of the blame. So with that I can say no more. I love you son.

I love my kids and miss them all, and even though there were things going on they'll never know, I want them to know it wasn't them. I was not a dad.

Hopefully one day you all can completely forgive me.

jesseb's your dad.

Shalom and Peace to Israel.

Son, can mommy come out and play.

Hopefully by now everyone has heard how there is a plan that was brought up by the united nation to where parents would only have the right to dress and feed their kid, and the government will raise them from there. Well Mr(s). Clinton, Obama's right hand she-man has been for this every since he was in office 8 years ago and the way its going it will be a done deal. Watch for it.

Well here's the deal about Son can mommy come out to play and this blog won't be deleted because it will hurt someone's feeling. ( Sorry) I have 3 daughters 4 all together one is 22 and 27 and 30, the other is 34. And really if you ask me neither 3 have had business having kids. that just my opinion and you know what they say about that,opinion are like butt holes everybody has one. In one of their case's she needs to learn to be patient with her 4 year and 9 year old, you can tell that the 9 year old son has been screamed and hollered at quite a bit because you can't even talk to him without him stuttering and tearing up at times. It will break your heart at times, and I can't just jokingly say anything in a certain tone without him thinking I'm mad or upset with him. It's a really sad ordeal, then he has a sister 4, one of the sweetest little girls you could ever meet, only thing wrong with her is she is to smart for her britches. We pretty much raised her, My wife and I the first 3 years of her life till her mommy decided she wanted to be a mother and could handle her. We all know that babies have a tendency to wake up or cry a lot when their just born until 7, 8 or 9 months old, so many a night again sometimes just me or me and my wife would walk with her, not drive, and as we would walk she would be as calm as though she was never upset. We live by a post office and the flag there flies 24/7 everyday of the year. By the time she was 4 months old she could recognize and point out the flag, trees, leaves, grass, flowers, the moon and stars. She was walking, I believe before she was 6 months old or earlier and talking by one. Gosh I love that kid, but I love all my grand kids the same measure even though we have to discipline each differently. Having 2 grandsons with the same disorder can be tough at times esp. when you keep them at the same time and their mommies don't bring their (ADHD) medication it gets pretty nerve racking at times, plus us getting older doesn't help either. You know what's sad about the whole thing is that when you have to buy your child something for them to even want to go home with you. It's really sad, and another thing that is sad, when mothers who have kids from different dad's, and the one she marries is the only dad he really has ever known and he isn't worth a shit. (sorry if my words offend) but when you have (narcissistic) parents, sad, oh man it's so damn sad. That was 1 of my daughters I'm not even blood kin to, but I love her and her sister as my own. And we treat them no differently than my own. They want your advise all the time but never listen. It's like you can take my advise or do as you damn well please, your way. Well its always their way and comes back to bite-em. It is a shame when children of today, but it's been this way every since I was a kid, and millions others just like me, when kids have to grow up before they ever had a childhood, (and has a tendency to scar them later in life) and that is the parents fault, for not being parents. Then there's the 30 year old, (my other blood daughter), I'm just going backwards down the line. who has 4 kids, and it is the true statement can mommy come out to play, sadly enough I can't say much about her because just last month was the first time in over 10 years I had seen any of them, except to say she began having kids at to early of a young age.

Son came mommy come out to play. This one is my blood daughter, (the 27 year old), God bless her soul. I love her so much, she was always a daddy's girl, I can remember when she was young, how timid she was, how you would say boo and she would cry lol. But she at some time grew out of it, (having a gun held to your head by an abusive husband can make you grow up pretty fast). I guess having a kid at a young age with a worthless abusive husband, (seems to be a trend with all my girls) contributed to that.

I know you all are thinking that's because I'm dad and there ain't no guys worthy, but that's not the case at all. Seems the problem is every one of them the 22 the 27 and the 34 has a propensity to attract mommy's boys and guys that are mentally or physically abusive. Well she had a child and he has been nothing but hell on her, but, we still love him the same, and I know you all will think I'm one sorry S.O.B, but he is turning out just like his dad. She has tried to get him so much help, she is a GOOD mom, she does everything under the sun for him, but nothing seems to help. And, I can't help but say this, she has attracted another freaken' mommy's boy who is mentally abusive, and of course, yeah, you got it, he ain't worth a shit either. She has a kid, he has a kid, they have a kid together, it's a damn mess. She doesn't like his kid, he doesn't like her kid, but they both love the kid they have together. Wow, can mommy come out to play, and mommy, son, can daddy come out to play? This is the other 9 year old with (ADHD) or to say it better both 9 year olds get out of control. When both 9 yr olds are together, hide the chocolate, candy, Dr pepper any thing that has sugar. The 27 yr old daughter is like the 34 yr old, you can take my advise or do as you damn well please, well as with the other it's they do as they damn well please, she trys to be a mom to her son, but he is so disrespectful. My wife and I have at times talked to him and when he stays with us, it is yes ma'am and yes sir. Lord bless her for trying. I have told both daughters to get rid of the dead wood or weight which ever fits the bill, then try again. Now for the 22 yr old who got a child after a rumble in the sack, I have to admire her for one thing, she did finish school before the baby was born. But she married the baby's father, which I thought was a good guy, and I can tolerate him, but, he cheated, they divorced, they have a kid together, they got joint custody, his mom is raising the kid more than both of them. He's gotten several girls pregnant, was supposed to marry a couple of times, didn't happen. They've tried to get back together, that didn't work out, she never or seldom has her daughter. His mom is, I guess, instead of the child' s grandma, her mommy. Now the the daughter was pregnant, and I may sound like a cold hearted Son of a B+-=-, but it didn't take and probably was for the best, you don't have a kid to try and settle down a man who is 30 yrs older than you. Geezz, daughters, wake up plzzzzzzzzzz. Another instance of a kid wanting another kid to raise. Damn, we really didn't raise them this way. Were we bad parents? Hmmm that's a hard question to answer, but I think not. Every one of them was raised in church and taught right from wrong.

When you can't discipline your kids without the Government stepping in, I guess that's the way things go. It will go from bad to worse. If you think it is bad now, just wait. Son, can your mommy come out to play, is the way it seems to me. Parents can't discipline their kids now without DHS stepping in and that's part of the reason the kids run the home.

I really don't know if anyone besides my wife, will read this blog, and if nobody does that's fine. But it's about kids having kids ,and then the kids rule the house. If anyone takes offense to this. sorry. I really do love ALL my girls and I want it to be known, what I say to one I'm not ashamed to say to all. I want that clarified and I want it clarified that I love you ALL with ALL MY HEART and the pain that you feel, I feel because I love you. You are NOT bad girls, you've made some bad choices, we all have in life. Now it's time to make those decisions right.

What it means when I say son can mommy come out to play is that kids are having kids and then the kids rule the home.

Thanks, jesseb's anything goes
Shalom and peace to Israel