Damned if you do, damned if you don't

Sometimes when you talk about family it seems you have to watch what you say not to hurt someone in the process, it's a damned if you do and your damned if you don't situation. Anymore I don't know what to write about and not to write about it. Or do you get to the point to where you wonder does it even matter anymore, either they'll love you or hate you. Again I say does it really matter? Don't get me wrong, I love all my kids the same but I came to realize something this past Easter, even though I didn't hear it by ear, but was told second hand (and anymore it seems like everything is second hand), which really doesn't matter one way or the other. As a parent I did do something that I know I won't have to answer for on that day when I have to stand before GOD.

Proverbs 22:6 says this short and sweet. [6] Train up a child in the way he should go: and when he is old, he will not depart from it.

I can honestly lay my head down at night knowing that I raised my children in Church teaching them, (if they listened) how to live and walk for GOD. At times I even wonder though did they even listen? At the heights of my ministry I messed up big time, yes, I got to where I thought I could do things myself without GOD'S help, very stupid thing on my part. I lost my family, my church family and GOD all in the same day, and no I will not go into details, but I heard that one of my girls and my ex said something about the church they had to go to, and me (I), made my ex sick for all those years. So I guess all the years she was supposed to be standing beside me in it all was all just a farce. Wow, what a kick in the groan. Yeah she was sick but not the whole time. I finally came to terms with what I DID and asked GOD for forgiveness, I guess that's why I say your damned if you do and damned if you don't.

Being a Parent and Preacher, even a Christian, can be a beach. Some seem to do everything right then you have those like me that it seems never did anything right at all. Gosh what can I say except forgive me and move on. I guess maybe I did make her sick all those years after I think about it now. It seems that right after we split she started going to the bars and drinking and never took her medicine from what I am told. Guess I'm just a sickening person, lol. Well I guess I've beached enough for now and if someone sees my ex and my eldest daughter out there some where, tell them for me to go ahead and blame me and the church, just don't blame God, okay, cause you just may be damned if you do or not.

P/S I almost forgot something, be careful what you say, GOD does not afflict, things happen sometimes that He uses to try to get our attention and some listen and some rebel. So, before you begin to point fingers, look when you point, there's always three fingers and a thumb pointing back at you. Point and see. And by the way some seem to forget that GOD knows your heart, who is real and who is not. No, I am not judging, just stating facts. I find myself having to defend myself all the time. Well never again, so get over it and move on. Duh

well till next time jesseb's
Shalom and Peace to Isreal

GOD is not

I have to answer a question brought before me concerning why things happens. A lot of people can't understand why marriages end. A lot of people wonder why GOD lets these things happen, well first of all one must come to grip with reality. GOD is not to blame, it is so easy for one to blame GOD for everything which is wrong. I wrote in my last blog that GOD gave man a brain to choose right from wrong. It takes two to make a marriage work, but, we fight against another power, (spirit), the devil, and it is so easy to blame him for everything also, and every time we give him credit for anything it is just giving him more power over us and our lives.

1Corinthians's 14:33 says this, "For GOD is not the author of chaos (confusion) but of peace, in all the churches of the saints". We can look at this in two ways, A church is -One of the groups of Christians who have their own beliefs and forms of worship. It plainly says a group of Christians, meaning friends, we are the church. Our bodies are the temple of the Holy Spirit or Holy Ghost.

1 Corinthians 6:19-"know ye not that ye are the temple of the Holy Ghost which is not yours but GOD's". It is hard for some to believe that even though we make up the church and that we are filled with the Holy ghost, that we can fall from grace but we can. We are nothing but mere humans made from the dirt of the earth. What we do with these beings that we are, is our fault, our choice, we have a choice to serve God or not to serve Him, and live our life accordingly. If we mess up our families, our lives and/or our marriages it's our own fault.

GOD does not cause marriage to split or break up. Some things happen that can be explained, but people refuse to understand. Especially when it comes to the younger kids in the marriage. Then you try and explain and they wont believe, because there seems to be a good parent and bad parent in every marriage when they split. They can only see one side, when there are two sides to everything. In most cases who ever the kids end up living with is who they side with. There is a tendency for at least one of the parents to talk and point out the bad things about the other parent, it happens in just about all breakups, and the kids see only one side and refuse to see both sides of the matter. Again I say GOD does not cause marriages or cause families to break up. People (husbands and/or wives (humans)) cause families to split. If we were to say we were never a christian, a preacher, pastor and everything we did was a farce, would that make things right enough, to be forgiven our down falling? No it wouldn't.
Again I say, things happen for a reason, and I believe that to some point. The reason is we are given choices to choose what we do and only we are to blame for those choices. There's not much more I can say on this matter, and I probably didn't make my point, but I'm trying to say, GOD is not the blame.

jesseb's

Shalom and Peace to Israel