No Apology for the truth.

I have mentioned a time or to about being a preacher for almost 30 years now, and at times I hit on hard times and did things I am not proud of. I backslid and lost most everything. One person who never gave up on me was the Almighty God. But now God has given me one more chance to prove myself and by the help of the Almighty God we think we might have a chance to make it. There was a time (which I have spoken of a few times) when there wasn't anything We could not ask God for and he wouldn't do, to the point to where I thought I was invincible, I sinned as everyone does.

Well this time around its got to be totally God's will or we won't do it, and there's going to be those who are not going to fully understand, but that's the way its got to be. I hope that anyone who reads this will agree that, it's got to be God's will or no will at all. Jesus please be Jesus in me. I was reading a book from a guy who some have said some terrible things about, but when you preach and teach the real TRUTH of God, then you're going to face persecution from those who profess also to be children of God. This man grew up in a Sabbath keeping household which he hated because it made him different then his friends, and they made fun of him. He could never do any of the school plays, football, or any sports. Well, that's the way it goes when you stand for the truth. But at his young age he didn't want the truth, he wanted to be like all the other normal kids.

Not only did they keep the Sabbath, they didn't celebrate Christmas, Easter, or halloween, (or any dead saints day). As a kid we celebrated Christmas but to be honest with you, I cannot remember too many of them and I guess that's the way it's supposed to be. Well as I read on about this young man it brought to mind my own family, how as they were growing up, I had come into the truth of God, and I realize the scripture that says if a man puts his hands to the plow and turns back he is not fit for the Kingdom of God. Thank goodness that God is who He says He is, long suffering and merciful. Because I feel for the first time in a long time that God has totally set me free from my past sentence of death by sin and been forgiven.

I really don't know where I stand with my children, they may hate me for the way I brought them up in the word of God , I do not know. But I cannot and I will not apologize for what I believe to be the whole truth and nothing but the truth of God in which I an in no way ashamed. The bible tells us to train up a child in the ways he should go and when he is old he will not depart from it. As I was talking to my oldest the other night she said a few things and she knows that it's not right. She said. "you know you did raise me." The next in line is trying her hardest to live the truth and having a hard time because when you are married to an unbeliever it's hard. Then there's my son, now I totally don't know where he stands on it, but I can only believe what the word of God tells me, that they will return to God and the truth.

Now, there is the wife, a pagan from birth lol ( just kidding ), who has served God on Sunday, (the day of the sun), and celebrated all the holidays, (not holy-days), then she began to seek God for truth, and wham, God, through the Holy Spirit, began to open her eyes to the truth about things she had done all her life. Friends and family it's not until you pick up the word of God and begin to read and study in sincerity that God reveals His truth. There is another scripture that says, "As for me and my house we will serve the Lord", In truth, honor, sincerely, and in obedience we will, and if any has a problem with that, we got one word for ya, PRAY.

God is the greatest , put your trust in Him, you'll be glad you did.

til next time jesseb's

Shalom and pray for peace of Jerusalem

The answer, A peace that passes all understanding

At this time I find myself looking for answers to the questions in the last two blogs I wrote. Questions 1 & 2, where do I start? We talked about marriage, divorce, having children, but we didn't mention the most important part of everyone's life, GOD and JESUS. I failed to mention the HOLY GHOST and eternal life. We tend to do things in our life as we said before, some things we regret and and some never ever regret any thing, whether or not it's right or wrong. Some don't believe there will be a judgment day and then there are those who knows there will be a day when every eye shall see and knee shall bow. But let's get back to some answers. Again we say life is what we make of it. Some are more fortunate than others, then there will always be those who get nowhere in life. The word of GOD says it plainly that the poor will be with us always. Those who have never been in that shape will never understand it.

It really doesn't matter what side of the tracks you come from, but that's just my thoughts on the matter, because good can happen, as well as bad can happen to anyone. I myself do not ever want to be filthy rich but just have enough money to be happy in life. I have read the book and have read what the end is to those whose money is the only drive they have, and guess what? They may be rich but they're never happy because the only thing they can think of is more ways to make more money. What does the word of GOD , the bible say about it. 1 Timothy 6:9-10
9) But they that will be rich fall into temptation and a snare, and into many foolish and hurtful lusts, which drown men in destruction and perdition. 10) For the love of money is the root of all evil: which while some coveted after, they have erred from the faith, and pierced themselves through with many sorrows.

See I want all to see the scriptures for themselves it doesn't take a rocket scientist or even a biblical scholar to understand the word of GOD. It plainly says that they have fallen into temptations and snares and many foolish and hurtful lusts. It says that the love of money is the root of all evil, and I know a lot of men who would beg to differ, and say the scripture should read the lust of women should be, well sorry its not like that it says money. Money causes men and women alike to err from the faith. All it is saying is that once men get to the point of having everything they need in their lives, such as riches, they have no need to have to depend on GOD for anything. Dividing them from ever needing GOD after, until something goes drastically wrong, then there once again calling on GOD. Then there are some that don't know that the Bible says that GOD HEARS NOT THE PRAYERS OF THE WICKED. Sounds pretty tough huh? Well it is, the word plainly tells us that there is only one way to GOD, and that is through JESUS CHRIST and the Spirit of GOD that draws one to the Father

Proverbs 15:29- 31- 29 The LORD is far from the wicked: but he heareth the prayer of the righteous.30 The light of the eyes rejoiceth the heart: and a good report maketh the bones fat.31 The ear that heareth the reproof of life abideth among the wise.
But if we look up in that same passage of scripture to verses Proverbs 15: 8-9 8 The sacrifice of the wicked is an abomination to the LORD: but the prayer of the upright is his delight. 9 The way of the wicked is an abomination unto the LORD: but he loveth him that followeth after righteousness.
Friends the reason I try and show you the scriptures is so that you may see them for yourself. I am to scared to tell you something that's not biblical, if you find me cowardly, I'm sorry. When we go to 1 Timothy 6:1-8, it tells us a lot of things to watch out for; the way men carry themselves and the words they speak. but when we get down to verses 4-8 If any man teach otherwise, and consent not to wholesome words, even the words of our Lord Jesus Christ, and to the doctrine which is according to godliness; 4 He is proud, knowing nothing, but doting about questions and strife's of words, whereof come envy, strife, railings, evil surmising, 5 Perverse disputing of men of corrupt minds, and destitute of the truth, supposing that gain is godliness: from such withdraw thyself. 6 But godliness with contentment is great gain. 7 For we brought nothing into this world, and it is certain we can carry nothing out. 8 And having food and raiment let us be therewith content.

To be content in the world is to live for GOD, the scriptures tells us not to forget to remember. We came into the world with nothing, and it is certain we can carry nothing out. It is every young person's dream (or most all of the young people), to grow up, hopefully get married, have kids, get rich if possible so they don't have to go through what a lot of people had to go through growing up. Heck it's not bad to think that way, I even thought that way, it just didn't work out that way. Yes I got married, had 3 wonderful kids of my own, had a good paying job, and even served GOD, I had it all. But as it said in the past scriptures, money is the root of all evil..(the lust of). All was well in my life until money became more important. You see, I've been there, done that. But I'm not alone. I've seen it time after time, but it ain't for me to judge anyone, how can I?

I wrote all this to say to all that reads (and hope it makes some sense), it doesn't matter what we do in life, growing up is not bad, getting married isn't bad, having kids ain't bad, all is good. But I will say this, that doing all these things without GOD on your side, just makes it tougher to make it in life. No, He didn't promise me or you a silver platter, or a bed of roses, He just told us in the scriptures above: having food and raiment let us be therewith content. Am I saying GOD wants us poor? Heaven forbid, no. He just wants to be there to help us through our lives. And no, GOD is not a glory hound, but all glory goes to GOD, and belongs to Him. Some may read this and think I am crazy, and yes I am a little nuts but no, not crazy.

Life again I say is what we make of it and I know you all are probably tired of hearing or reading it. But what I told you that you can have and live in is peace. Philippians 4:4-7 [7]Rejoice in the Lord always: and again I say, Rejoice. 5 Let your moderation be known unto all men. The Lord is at hand. 6 Be careful for nothing; but in every thing by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known unto God. 7 And the peace of God, which passes all understanding, shall keep your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus. Read the scriptures, it's right there before your eyes to see. THROUGH IT ALL GOD CAN AND WILL give you a peace that passes all understanding. I have found we can do life the hard way or we can make life a bit easier and trust in a GOD whose peace passes all man's understanding. All men can do is tell you about the peace, but men can not give you that peace, only GOD through his SON JESUS CHRIST.

You see when God's in charge all things work to the good, but a lot of times we tend to let satan get to us in other ways, so, when GOD gets ready to work, satan clouds our minds so bad GOD gets set back to the side and can't work.
Friends I know it was long but I hope you enjoyed.
Thanks jesseb's
Shalom and Peace to Israel

Damned if you do, damned if you don't

Sometimes when you talk about family it seems you have to watch what you say not to hurt someone in the process, it's a damned if you do and your damned if you don't situation. Anymore I don't know what to write about and not to write about it. Or do you get to the point to where you wonder does it even matter anymore, either they'll love you or hate you. Again I say does it really matter? Don't get me wrong, I love all my kids the same but I came to realize something this past Easter, even though I didn't hear it by ear, but was told second hand (and anymore it seems like everything is second hand), which really doesn't matter one way or the other. As a parent I did do something that I know I won't have to answer for on that day when I have to stand before GOD.

Proverbs 22:6 says this short and sweet. [6] Train up a child in the way he should go: and when he is old, he will not depart from it.

I can honestly lay my head down at night knowing that I raised my children in Church teaching them, (if they listened) how to live and walk for GOD. At times I even wonder though did they even listen? At the heights of my ministry I messed up big time, yes, I got to where I thought I could do things myself without GOD'S help, very stupid thing on my part. I lost my family, my church family and GOD all in the same day, and no I will not go into details, but I heard that one of my girls and my ex said something about the church they had to go to, and me (I), made my ex sick for all those years. So I guess all the years she was supposed to be standing beside me in it all was all just a farce. Wow, what a kick in the groan. Yeah she was sick but not the whole time. I finally came to terms with what I DID and asked GOD for forgiveness, I guess that's why I say your damned if you do and damned if you don't.

Being a Parent and Preacher, even a Christian, can be a beach. Some seem to do everything right then you have those like me that it seems never did anything right at all. Gosh what can I say except forgive me and move on. I guess maybe I did make her sick all those years after I think about it now. It seems that right after we split she started going to the bars and drinking and never took her medicine from what I am told. Guess I'm just a sickening person, lol. Well I guess I've beached enough for now and if someone sees my ex and my eldest daughter out there some where, tell them for me to go ahead and blame me and the church, just don't blame God, okay, cause you just may be damned if you do or not.

P/S I almost forgot something, be careful what you say, GOD does not afflict, things happen sometimes that He uses to try to get our attention and some listen and some rebel. So, before you begin to point fingers, look when you point, there's always three fingers and a thumb pointing back at you. Point and see. And by the way some seem to forget that GOD knows your heart, who is real and who is not. No, I am not judging, just stating facts. I find myself having to defend myself all the time. Well never again, so get over it and move on. Duh

well till next time jesseb's
Shalom and Peace to Isreal

Living the gifts of of the spirit

I often sit back and watch people and being a Preacher at one time, God entrusted me with that gift of discernment, which is 1 of the gifts of the spirit spoke about in the book of 1 Corinthians 12:4-11 and it says- [4] Now there are diversities of gifts, but the same Spirit. 5 And there are differences of administrations, but the same Lord. 6 And there are diversities of operations, but it is the same God which work all in all. 7 But the manifestation of the Spirit is given to every man to profit withal. 8 For to one is given by the Spirit the word of wisdom; to another the word of knowledge by the same Spirit; 9 To another faith by the same Spirit; to another the gifts of healing by the same Spirit; 10 To another the working of miracles; to another prophecy; to another discerning of spirits; to another divers kinds of tongues; to another the interpretation of tongues: 11 But all these work that one and the selfsame Spirit, dividing to every man severally as he will.

As a Christian you can have any of the gifts you seek GOD for, but I really don't think we are bestowed with all. Some will have the gift of healing, prophesy, laying on of hands, praying, preaching, teaching, tongues and tongue and interpretation, and then the gift of the discernment. It is my belief that the Ministers and preachers have the gift of the spirit of discernment to discern the spirits, and I guess even though I no longer Preach I still have the gift.When we met our second wife she worked with a lot of different people, and not only they but other people as well I began to tell her what kind of people they were and she couldn't see it until the things I told started coming to pass, No I am NOT Nostradamus, and I can't see or foretell the future. All I can tell about is what the spirit of GOD has showed me.

Being able to discern things in the spirit is needed to be able to keep the enemy at bay and on the run. It is one of the tools GOD bestows on His people as well as Preachers. A lot of people would think that it would be judging folk i's not, being able to discern thing makes one aware of what is going on not only in the congregation of the saints, ( Church), but the world around you. But to me it is not the gift of discernment that is the greatest, being able to lead people to Christ and they find Him as their Lord and Savior, being able to pray for the lost and GOD opening His window in Heaven and pouring out His soul convicting spirit that leads people to Christ, then its being able to teach those the word of GOD, (teaching) then feeding the people with the preaching to keep their souls nourished with not only the milk but also the meat of the word. Living in the spirit.

I believe that the gifts are to help edify the Church. Friends, there is nothing like the feeling of being able to lay hands on the sick. and the healing virtue of God, ( THE ANOINTING), begins to transmit through your body into theirs and they be healed. It is a feeling that can't be described by me. There is nothing like being a Christian in the will of GOD and he uses you for the will of the Church. I do believe that the scariest gift of all is the tongues and interpretation. Or maybe I shouldn't use the word scariest. The gift of tongues and interpretation is for the edifying of the Church in most cases. Through tongues and interpretation it can be to the Church and what GOD intends to do in its future, or it could be for someone who has been searching GOD for answers to things, or GOD speaking to an individual person. And at anytime when there is an interpretation, somehow GOD will give some type of witness, such as moving of the spirit, chill's running all over your body. Friends, when the Spirit of GOD begins to move, the devil runs. That's called living in the spirit.

A lot of people think that the Pentecostal Churches and some Full gospel churches are nuts. Some would say that dancing in the spirit, speaking in tongues are not biblical but think again even divine healing and the laying on of hands are also biblical. Its just the snake part that I don't see where they come up with. I think they who play with snakes are tempting the Lord by saying ok Lord we're going to play with these posionous snakes, now keep us safe. That is plum crazy, Jesus said while in the wilderness the 40 days and nights as satan tempted him, Jesus said, THOU SHALL NOT TEMPT THE LORD THY GOD.

Luke 10:19-20- reads this way.- Behold, I give unto you power to tread on serpents and scorpions, and over all the power of the enemy: and nothing shall by any means hurt you. 20 Notwithstanding in this rejoice not, that the spirits are subject unto you; but rather rejoice, because your names are written in heaven. I guess this is where they think they have the protection of GOD to play with snakes, heck more power to them. To me the only good snake is a dead snake. Although they were given power over them in this scripture do I see anywhere where it says you can play and kiss or anything else and be safe from danger. Playing with snakes ain't living in the spirit.

But people will continue to do the crazy things they do in the name of the Lord, Matthew 7:21-23 [23] Not every one that saith unto me, Lord, Lord, shall enter into the kingdom of heaven; but he that doeth the will of my Father which is in heaven. 22 Many will say to me in that day, Lord, Lord, have we not prophesied in thy name? and in thy name have cast out devils? and in thy name done many wonderful works? 23 And then will I profess unto them, I never knew you: depart from me, ye that work iniquity.

We can plainly see here that Jesus said just because they do these things doesn't mean I agree with what they do. I myself don't think that playing with snakes is one of the things he agrees with. Might as well call that craziness suicide. Serving GOD is fun and exciting , refreshing when you truly find the place, or Church GOD wants you at. A lot of people just die right away from not being fed the word of GOD. There are two stages you must go through tho to grow in Christ, as a babe must crawl before they walk, a babe needs the milk before the meat of the word. I will say one thing about the church I did attend for many years and it took almost to the time the pastor retired to realize this, that he was choking the babe before they had a chance to grow in Christ. Friend living in the spirit is wonderful, And I will say this in closing this blog. Try it you may like it. The word of GOD is good to the last bite, and the milk to the last drop.


Thanks again jesseb's
Shalom and Peace to Isael.