Getting rid of the baggage.

I believe that many time in life we go through more than we truly have too.  You know, the Bible tells us that God will put no more on us than we can bare. We ask then, why does everything seems so hard? That answer is because we have a tendency to hold within ourselves things we didn't even know was there. I know this because I am one of those people. I believe also that God puts people in our lives to help us to learn to cope with things that is wrong.

Cope - to handle something successful: to deal successfully with a difficult problem or situation.

Friends, men, especially have a tendency to think we can overcome things on our own, because most of us growing up was told grown men do cry and we have to be strong. Friends, take it from someone who is there and going through the same as you. Living in the past, (the baggage) will eventually catch up with you. Unless you or someone you know are aware of the signs, it will be  every hard to detect what is happening.
Many of the things we try thinking that we will get over it, doesn't work. We think that being able to talk to a love one or spouse about our problems will do the trick and fix us but there is more to it than that. We are talking about many many years of carrying past baggage. Getting help or treatment is no different than an Alcoholic seeking helping through AA, or a smoker having help to quit smoking. To many  times why we hold onto the past is because we go into what is called preservation mode.

Preservation - Is to protect from harm, danger; to protect.

Many people who have psychological problems are unaware because things happen to us in our youth or growing to where we build up a wall, saying, "I will never let this happen again".

Psychological  - Human mind: relating to the mind or mental processes affecting humans:  affecting or intended to affect the mind and mental processes.

 When I was young there had been a lot of bad things in my life and I say (had been) because it is in the past, now I have a future. People who live in the past have no future. As I was saying there had been things that took place so that one day I told myself, "NO ONE will ever hurt me again". I had built up such a wall I could not break it down on my own. Past baggage hurts everyone around you. I myself believe that 85% of divorces take place because of hurt from things we have no control over or we can't fix ourselves (past baggage).

As much as I hate to bring up these two subjects, they are two examples of why getting help will help you to cope and overcome the baggage of your past.

      1. Is battered wife/husband syndrome, yes it can go both ways
      2. abuse, (mentally,verbally, or physically), even child molesting/rape which could had happened only once or continue on into their teen and adult years. These are just two of the many things people try to cope with on their own. These are things that causes broken marriages and homes. When things begin to arise in our relationships with others we do have a tendency to get angry or upset to the point that there is no point of repair.
I believe that those things we have heard or experienced in our past stays within us until we can get help. And we bring them into our relationships. Being abusive isn't a way of life, we must face it!  Being abusive is a (SICKNESS). We said earlier in this blog that God puts on us no more than we can bare. Many will ask, if He, (God), doesn't, why doesn't or why won't he heal me. To be honest I have no answer to why He won't. The Apostle Paul had a thorn in his side, (not a literal thorn) it could have been a sickness, disease. We really don't know because there isn't much mentioned about it except that He asked God to remove it three times and God said NO, My grace is sufficient. Meaning I guess it is there to keep you (Paul) humble.
Many people suffer from depression and being Bi-polar. Many don't even know that they carry that around everyday. We feel down in the dumps all the times, don't care about things, especially those we love. When we suffer everyone suffers.
Some say that depression can be hereditary.

In which hereditary means - of or relating to,or denoting factor that can be transmitted from one generation to the next.

What cause depression and anxiety -

• Depression may be described as feeling sad, blue, unhappy, miserable, or down in the dumps. Most of us feel this way at one time or another for short periods. True clinical depression is a mood disorder in which feelings of sadness, loss, anger, or frustration interfere with everyday life for weeks or longer.

There are a number of factors that may increase the chance of depression, including the following:

• Abuse. Past physical, sexual, or emotional abuse can cause depression later in life.
• Certain medications. For example, some drugs used to treat high blood pressure, such as beta-blockers or reserpine, can increase your risk of depression.
• Conflict. Depression may result from personal conflicts or disputes with family members or friends.
• Death or a loss. Sadness or grief from the death or loss of a loved one, though natural, can also increase the risk of depression.
• Genetics. A family history of depression may increase the risk. It's thought that depression is passed genetically from one generation to the next. The exact way this happens, though, is not known.
• Major events. Even good events such as starting a new job, graduating, or getting married can lead to depression. So can moving, losing a job or income, getting divorced, or retiring.
• Other personal problems. Problems such as social isolation due to other mental illnesses or being cast out of a family or social group can lead to depression.
• Serious illnesses. Sometimes depression co-exists with a major illness or is a reaction to the illness.
• Substance abuse. Nearly 30% of people with substance abuse problems also have major or clinical depression.

How Is Biology Related to Depression?

Researchers have noted differences in the brains of people who are depressed as compared to people who are not. For instance, the hippocampus, a small part of the brain that is vital to the storage of memories, appears to be smaller in people with a history of depression than in those who've never been depressed. A smaller hippocampus has fewer serotonin receptors. Serotonin is a calming brain chemical known as a neurotransmitter that allows communication between nerves in the brain and the body. It's also thought that the neurotransmitter norepinephrine may be involved in depression.

Scientists do not know why the hippocampus is smaller in those with depression. Some researchers have found that the stress hormone cortisol is produced in excess in depressed people. These investigators believe that cortisol has a toxic or poisonous effect on the hippocampus. Some experts theorize that depressed people are simply born with a smaller hippocampus and are therefore inclined to suffer from depression.

One thing is certain -- depression is a complex illness with many contributing factors. The latest scans and studies of brain chemistry that show the effects of antidepressants help broaden our understanding of the biochemical processes involved in depression. As scientists gain a better understanding of the cause(s) of depression, health professionals will be able to make better "tailored" diagnoses and, in turn, prescribe more effective treatment plans.

What causes being bi-polar or uni-polar - The cause of bipolar disorder is not entirely known. Genetic, neurochemical and environmental factors probably interact at many levels to play a role in the onset and progression of bipolar disorder. The current thinking is that this is a predominantly biological disorder that occurs in a specific part of the brain and is due to a malfunction of the neurotransmitters (chemical messengers in the brain). As a biological disorder, it may lie dormant and be activated spontaneously or it may be triggered by stressors in life.

Although, no one is quite sure about the exact causes of bipolar disorder, researchers have found these important clues:

Genetic factors in Bipolar Disorder

• Bipolar disorder tends to be familial, meaning that it “runs in families.” About half the people with bipolar disorder have a family member with a mood disorder, such as depression.
• A person who has one parent with bipolar disorder has a 15 to 25 percent chance of having the condition.
• A person who has a non-identical twin with the illness has a 25 percent chance of illness, the same risk as if both parents have bipolar disorder.
• A person who has an identical twin (having exactly the same genetic material) with bipolar disorder has an even greater risk of developing the illness about an eightfold greater risk than a nonidentical twin.
• Studies of adopted twins (where a child whose biological parent had the illness is raised in an adoptive family untouched by the illness) has helped researchers learn more about the genetic causes vs. environmental and life events causes.

Neurochemical Factors in Bipolar Disorder

Bipolar disorder is primarily a biological disorder that occurs in a specific area of the brain and is due to the dysfunction of certain neurotransmitters, or chemical messengers, in the brain. These chemicals may involve neurotransmitters like norepinephrine,serotonin and probably many others. As a biological disorder, it may lie dormant and be activated on its own or it may be triggered by external factors such as psychological stress and social circumstances.

Environmental Factors in Bipolar Disorder

• A life event may trigger a mood episode in a person with a genetic disposition for bipolar disorder.
• Even without clear genetic factors, altered health habits, alcohol or drug abuse, or hormonal problems can trigger an episode.
• Among those at risk for the illness, bipolar disorder is appearing at increasingly early ages. This apparent increase in earlier occurrences may be due to under diagnosis of the disorder in the past. This change in the age of onset may be a result of social and environmental factors that are not yet understood.
• Although substance abuse is not considered a cause of bipolar disorder, it can worsen the illness by interfering with recovery. Use of alcohol or tranquilizers may induce a more  severe depressive phase.

Now the answer is: there are ways of getting fixed and leaving behind the unwanted emotional baggage we have carried around for years. 

First you must have or receive a diagnosis . 

Then with the help of the right medications, (different people usually are described different medications). What helps one may not be helpful to another but given a chance there is a right combination that will help with you depression/bi-polar disorders. 

And lastly finding the right counselor or therapist that you can feel comfortable with. Some men can relate to women better than men or vice versa.

Don't be ashamed or afraid to ask for help, the only shame is NOT seeking help.  If you don't care enough about yourself to seek help, do it for those you love and don't want to hurt.

 

Yes there are ways to reverse the baggage.
In airports there are baggage claim areas to pick up your luggage? Get off the plane forget the luggage and leave it there. It won't be easy but it can be done.

I hope this will help someone.








 

Today could be the best day, of the rest of your life.

 This morning as in every morning there is someone in need. Whether they be lost and hurt and no where to turn, or a child of God who has lost their way through these streets we call life with all its crooks and turns. Friends, its not hard to do. Some grow up in very nurturing families and others don't. Yes it's hard but it's done, there are young people as well as adults who live their lives from behind a mask. Many will condemn someone who takes their life and even the thought, but folks have you walked in their shoes one step? We should pray before we condemn. Before you condemn someone just set back and think about it a while. Bad things happen to people from both sides of the tracks so to say. Whether you attended church or never stepped a foot inside. Its called the pressures of life.

 This morning there are people who need more than a pat on the back and for us to tell them everythings gonna be alright. Friends,lost ,lost loved ones as well as christians around the world, a pat on the back is not going to comfort someone who is in dire need. They need more, they truly need Jesus the one who gives a peace that passes all understanding. This morning and every morning let us go before the mercy seat of God and pour out our plea to the one who gave HIS life for you. This morning around the world abroad and here at home (America) sing and pray whether you are lost and suffering or you are a christian and hurting, let us start.

Chorus
 SWEEP OVER MY  SOUL, SWEEP  OVER MY  SOUL,  SWEET  SPIRIT, SWEEP  OVER MY  SOUL,  MY  REST WILL BE COMPLETE WHEN I  SIT AT HIS FEET. SWEET  SPIRIT SWEEP  OVER MY  SOUL.

This morning  Lord, I (we,us,they) am in need of you, I am a sinner in which I am not proud. Lord I come before the throne of grace and mercy, Father, asking you to forgive me my sins, wash me white as snow let your blood flow through me. This is all I can say, I don't know you at all but today I take that (this) step, I need you in my life because "I'm at my wits end" I know no where else to turn.
  Dear Gracious Heavenly Father I was told that you know  the number of hairs on a person's head and that you know each person by name. Father if it be true, because this is so new to me. Please come into my life and set me free.
This morning the christian as well as the lost are hiding behind a mask.You smile when there is no true smile, you joke and kid around when there's no feelings too. The reason I can say that is because I have lived behind that mask of guilt and shame. After years of being told that I wouldn't amount to nothing, I was worthless, or why was I ever born, what other place is there to go. Then one day someone talked to me about Jesus and what He had done for their life and how when the Son sets you free, truly free, you are free indeed.


 SWEEP OVER MY  SOUL, SWEEP  OVER MY  SOUL SWEET  SPIRIT, SWEEP  OVER MY  SOUL. MY  REST WILL BE  COMPLETE WHEN I  SIT AT HIS FEET.  SWEET  SPIRIT SWEEP  OVER MY  SOUL.

 This morning and today around the world if you can and if you want. Let us sing that chorus, and as we do let us together lay it all at Jesus's feet. Because to God you ARE worthy of God's love, To God you DO amount to something, And today you will know why you were born. Yes there is place and a reason you are here.

NASB - Jeremiah 29:11 --- 29:11  `For I know the plans that I have for you,' declares the LORD, `plans for welfare and not for calamity to give you a future and a hope.

KJV - 29:11  For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, saith the LORD, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you an expected end.

As we sing the chorus one more time.

 SWEEP OVER MY  SOUL, SWEEP  OVER MY  SOUL, SWEET  SPIRIT SWEEP  OVER MY  SOUL.  MY  REST WILL BE COMPLETE WHEN I  SIT AT HIS FEET.  SWEET  SPIRIT SWEEP  OVER MY  SOUL.

As the choir sings the song, ARISE to your feet for you have a brand new life. It starts with believing.

If you feel something has changed in your life today, give GOD the glory. For you as well as millions of others have now opened up your life to a whole new meaning and a brighter day. Today the mask is removed you have become a Child of the Most God. Even though the roads ahead won't be easy, we can truly rest in knowing, you have a God that loves you unconditionally.  Not as the god of this world. HE will be with you every step of the way.

Folks sing it in all humbleness yet with pride for today your plate is set at the table.

In heaven they just received an invitation from a missionary in a distant land to accommodate a party of believers who just accepted God's salvation plan. Just as the angels say, "All is ready" God hears a cry from another man. There's been another birth into the kingdom And the head waiter hears one more command.

Set another place at the table, write another name on the role. Take out another robe, shine one more crown, another child is Heaven bound.  Add another verse to the chorus as the angels rehearse the welcome song. Set another place at the table for the rest of the family coming home.

If the invitation is not answered, it's engraved forever in HIS hand, I come to remind you of the honor to dine in the presence of this Man.

Set another place at the table, write another name on the role. Take out another robe, shine one more crown, another child is Heaven bound. Add another verse to the chorus, as the angels rehearse the welcome song. Set another place at the table, for the rest of the family coming home. Set another place at the table For the rest of the family coming home.

Today an invitation has been sent out to everyone, Christians, the Lost, Muslims, Jews, Buddist, Krishnas and all others leaving no one out. Come home.

May God bless

High upon a mountain or Down in the valley

Brother and Sister, Friends Neighbors and children. I hope once again that God has blessed you all. There are so many song in the Christian world about. God being God oh and yes He is. a God that never changes. Once a God of Love always a God of Love. And a God with attitude, slow to anger but can be angered. yes that same God that lead Moses and the Israelites out of bondage, threw the red sea,and threw the wilderness. He is that same God. He changes not. We make mention of many songs of God. it is good to Know that He as well as his Son Jesus Christ are the same yesterday, today and for EVER.
Yes that same God that takes you to the top of the mountain is that same God the will bring us threw the valleys of our LIVES.Many times I have stood on the mountain top, and I have been threw the valleys just as much, I am learning once again to totally  trust in him even more than I than I have already. As we speak  to people about God it hurts to see people hurting. And it hurts me, but as God gives me the words to tell them. First you must repent, believe in Jesus and believe in his name, seek him and find him and he is faithful to His word to hear your prayers and desires. Friends and thats Bible. The same God high on the mountain is the same God in the valleys with you. Have faith and take heart that he will be there and see you through.
He is the one that said He would, this ain't jesseb's word that is Gods word and promise to all that trust and believe in Him. There ain't a mountain to high, a valley to low or a river to wide . that He can't  take you over, through or around.

Shalom and pray for the peace of Jerusalem
till next time jesseb

To God be the Glory

Hello again my friends, I hope that this finds all doing well. Hope God has blessed each and everyone of you. My hope is the Lord has and will open the doors of Heaven and pour out more blessings that you all can handle,We came to this text as we were sitting here listening to The Gospel Hiway Internet radio. I guess beside Jesus in the Bible my favorite people are Paul and King David. We are often times during the day reminded just how great God is. Not just by waking in the morning to a new day, or the precious breath of life. but also the beauty he bestows upon us everyday.
It is my belief that we should in some way some how every minute of the Let Gods name roll off our lips and out of our mouths. Some would say why should I call or even speak His name. well #1 your alive aren't ya, and some would probably say, But I don't want to be here. Well ain't nothing really anything you can do about it till its your time to go, so why not enjoy it ? In everything we do we should give Him ( God ) the glory. King David a man after Gods own heart set an example for us. rather a good example if I should say also.
Yes the same David who was in no wise  perfect but the same a man after Gods own heart. Sure he did things that weren't right. Like sending a man out to the front lines of battle to die, so he could have his wife. and yes it almost destroyed him. But just as Noah found grace in the eyes of the Lord so did David and if they can we also can find grace. My Bible teaches me that there is but sin that wont be forgiven. and the is Blasphemy  of the Holy  Spirit. So see that day that Jesus was hung of the Cross he open the door to grace for all. Doesn't matter if your Red Yellow Black or  White, Asian or any other race. You can be forgiven.But in all things we do To God be all the Glory.
I made a decision about a week ago not to ever call upon His mighty name anymore. But then not even 5 minutes later I found myself calling upon his name. God has been such a vital part of my life for so long I really have no other to call on. Who has been there for me. In my childhood if it had been for Jesus, I truly believe I wouldn't be here typing today.David said all throughout the book of Psalms that God is great and greatly to be praised, and that is a Good saying. Let all give praise honor and glory to the most high God. Friend look around today, and see all the splendor of  God and Him and all His Glory and beauty. To  God be all the Glory.

Shalom and pray for the peace of Jerusalem
Till next time  jesseb

Under the Shadow

Good morning, afternoon, or evening what ever time it may be that you read this, if you do at all. As I was watching One of my favorite movies it inspired  me and got me to thinking about a thing or two. I have come to realize in My own life that I have said so many times that I knew Jesus. But when reality hit me I didn't know Jesus at all, I knew of Jesus. If I had of known Jesus I might not have faltered so many times. Some call Jesus ( GOD ), others call HIM the SON, but one thing is for sure, He is one of the Three that makes up the Holy Trinity. For those who do not believe in the trinity theory, that is your prerogative, some think of Him only as a Prophet..but no matter what you think He is, He is the Saviour #1, a Brother#2, and soon to be crowned King of Kings.  Hey the Bible does tell us that the word of God is to NO one man's interpretation, which I guess is alright if the Bible tell us this. Can you say Amen.
There is an old song I have heard all my life just about and it is one that is as dear to me today as it was when I first heard it and didn't quit understand the words. The words to the song goes as this, "I love to tell the story, how a Saviour came from Glory". Brothers and Sisters, I am not a perfect person, I can't stand and say that I have never smoked a cigarette, a joint, or took speed, I can't ever say that a beer or alcohol has never touch my lips, or I haven't ever lusted or coveted anything in my life, and God only knows I can't say that I have never lied. If I had been free from all this maybe God would have taken me like he did Elijah and Enoch. Now that would have been the ultimate prize wouldn't it. But I am not Perfect and will never be, But I do hope to be somewhat found worthy When he splits the Clouds of Glory, to take his Children to be with him forever, in the First resurrection.
As I was listening to the movie that the text of this Blog came from, it derives from Psalms 91 verse 1 -8

<< Psalm 91 >> King James Version 1He that dwelleth in the secret place of the most High shall abide under the shadow of the Almighty.2I will say of the LORD, He is my refuge and my fortress: my God; in him will I trust. 3Surely he shall deliver thee from the snare of the fowler, and from the noisome pestilence. 4He shall cover thee with his feathers, and under his wings shalt thou trust: his truth shall be thy shield and buckler. 5Thou shalt not be afraid for the terror by night; nor for the arrow that flieth by day; 6Nor for the pestilence that walketh in darkness; nor for the destruction that wasteth at noonday. 7A thousand shall fall at thy side, and ten thousand at thy right hand; but it shall not come nigh thee. 8Only with thine eyes shalt thou behold and see the reward of the wicked.

Brothers and sisters, you don't have to live a perfect life, just close to it.  NO man is perfect, and if you see or find a man who seems to think or say he is, stand away, way away, because lightening may strike at any time. Friends family and Bro and Sis there is coming a day that we will face the noisome pestilence, Jesus said we would in Matthew the 24th chapter. If you happen to believe in the rapture, and it doesn't happen, may God help all the souls who took men's word for it, and did not search the Scriptures or let the Holy Spirit show them what is true, and right and just. God is and has always been an equal opportunity God.
I do want you to know that if you should miss the first resurrection, in which the second death hath no power its no one's fault but your own.
The things that Jesus spoke of throughout His time here on earth even though it was so short, He knew what he was speaking. And he left us a promise that was filled in Acts chapters1 and 2, the Holy Ghost. The only thing Jesus did not know and still does not know is the day His Father will turn to him and say, "MY Son it is time, go get MY PEOPLE". You see friends, neighbors, family, Bro and Sis. YOU can't ride the coattails of a Preacher into the KINGDOM of GOD.Wives you cannot ride the shirt tails of your husbands into the KINGDOM of GOD. Children you can't expect to make it in on just what the Pastor,Teacher, Mommy or Daddy told you .
Yes the Bible tells us to train up our Children in the ways they should go. Well Friends one thing we have to realize is this, train them up and turn them over to GOD that's all we can do. He'll do the rest and that's a promise from HIM not I. Friends as I close this blog. DO you know of God or truly Know GOD and all the purpose He has for you? Say that I am right about the end days and we aren't raptured out, will you be found under the shadow of the Almighty God? I truly hope that I am in that day. That is my prayer daily. Amen

Shalom and Pray for the Peace of Jerusalem
til next brain thrust                                                            jesseb

Though I walk threw the valley! Psalms 23 v1

As I start this blog, I don't know how many of you even read any of my blogs. But I have come to see and realize that when using social site when you go to post something ,on any of them especially Face book, if your going to post make darn sure you know what you going to say before, you write.
What I was going to type and write  was. In a land and time many many years ago there were two Kingdoms  Judea to the north and Israel to the south. The children of Israel got to the point where they wanted a king like all the other heathen nations around them had. So GOD gave them what they wanted as He always had, weather it was good and right for them or not. But he told them that the King would be a burdensome King. So He gave them Saul. he did as GOD said he would and worse.He turned from GOD. made all of Israel to suffer. But there was a young man, who would become the Future King of Israel, a man after Gods own heart. David, yes this same David who slew a bear with his hands,yes this the same David that slew Goliath the philistine. yes the same David who sent a man to his death so he could have his wife.  yes this same little David who play the harp for the King he would replace as KING. yes this same David that the KING SAUL would become jealous of and would seek to kill numerous times.
What I was attempting to convey was the first lines of what David said in Psalms 23; when He wrote;- ( Though I walk threw the valley of the shadow of death,I will fear not evil. ). David from a very early age was chosen of God to be King over all of Israel. North and South combined and it did happen.just read 1st and 2 nd Samuel . David went through so much ,so much that none or a lot of people will never go through. Being chosen of God is not the easiest thing to be because no matter what it seems that there's a target on your back at all time, and I believe David knew that from the beginning. Weather God had or has called you from the womb, It's not only bad that we are born into sin but it's like a double jeopardy to be called from the womb, it you can understand that concept. Though i walk threw the valley of death~!
I believe that David knew from a early age as I started to state early that there wouldn't be a day that His live could be taken from him. He knew there would be struggles in life. But you know what, in all of this He knew that He had the one person on his side, weather he lived that day or died. He had The One Living God on his side, WHY? because of the promises God had made Him. that He would be His GOD.
Its was my mistake the other night on Face book to not clearly explain myself. no matter how many people cares for Me. All we really need is God. What i said and what was suppose to come out was two different things. What I meant to say that night was this. I am 51 going on 52. I was and still am a Minister of the Gospel of the Kingdom of God weather I ever preach again, no I am not being arrogant. But as the Bible speaks, I have made sure my calling, Yes without a shadow of any doubt I believe and know that God called Me from an early age also, even though it was not manifested til I was 21 or 22 years old. Do I still  believe God is with me. Well I would be stupid if I though He wasn't. He said in his word that He would be my God no matter what with the exception of Blasphemy of the Holy Spirit. Has He God ever left me NO even though I've walked away a couple of times, Has he been there waiting on Me with open arms YES, The Bible tells me He was and Is.
All I was saying was don't call 911, is because I know where my walk with God is, and were we are headed. Friend, family, kids.I want you all to understand I thing. God is My God he is a living, breathing, walking, talking, all knowing,seeing, and powerful God. He for just me alone has done so much to prove to me that he is My God even though I have really never proved anything to him, He has answered me when I was not worthy of an answer. He has opened up the windows of Heaven for me even when I was not worthy. He has Blessed me every morning for the past 51 years and hope He blesses me with another 51 years of the precious breath of life IF He should tarry His Sons second coming. Everyday I ask God for forgiveness for everything I have done wrong and to forgive me those things that I can't remember that I have done . Wrong.
So see  That is why I said though I walk through the valley of death . I have no fear. For God is my God and he watches over me. My comment had nothing to do with suicide! period


Though  I walk through the valley of Death ,I will fear no evil.

Thank and til I do or say something stupid again.
Shalom  and Pray for the peace of Jerusalem
jesseb

Whats love got to do with it.

I have for the past few days been searching everywhere for exactly what does the word LOVE mean, I have look at what the world would say LOVE means, and I have looked at the Biblical definition of LOVE . And it makes no sense to me, and I am suppose to have a 3 and half year equivalency of college in comprehension. And if anyone out there can explain what it truly means maybe I can grasp it. It seems that the are different meanings of love. But I do believe there is a difference between, Love, infatuation, and lust. Love I guess is a love so deep that you are willing to lay down for family, kids,friends. then I guess infatuation is where you just have to have something or someone then when the new wears off you don't want it or them anymore. and then there's lust.
You see each one of these deals with one word love. weather we see it that way or not. Love for family is what is called unconditional love I think, Then infatuation is where you want something or someone to keep someone else from having it. Then I guess lust means wanting and getting it when ever you want or can. So what does love have to do with anything. as I can see nothing.
One thing that I will always remember is that my momma told me was to respect women. But she never said to love them. really don't seem to make sense but that's what she said. But how would you expect for her to say such a thing, when you live for seventeen years of your life and never hear the LOVE word not one time that I can remember and I have been told that I don't want to remember. Which is wrong. You know what as I sit here and write this blog, I can't remember anyone including my Grand parents even saying they loved anyone not even each other. I guess there was no love in our household. So how do you learn to love when you were never taught to love.
To be honest with you Love is way overrated. There's  only two people who can LOVE  the way LOVE was meant to be. GOD and HIS SON JESUS CHRIST. YOU can curse GOD scream and holler throw a temper tantrum use his name in vain and They will forgive you and love you. with exceptions of Blasphemy of the HOLY SPIRIT. So when a person tells another that they love you with all their hearts run. because its really not love. So whats love got to do with anything nothing.
Maybe one day I will find out and hopefully before its to late to really find out what love means and what it is about So if anyone was the rightful answer to this let me know.

I ain't quite there yet ( but I will be ) pray for those in need !

Morning all. I would like to take this time to thank all who have prayed for me, and continue to, even when I have ask them not to. I know to those who do pray it sounds selfish. but sorry that just the way I feel. no not selfish, just pray for those who are in need. God is taking care of me as we speak. I sit here at times and wonder what are they praying and asking God to do to me and I can almost answer that question , I'm pretty sure I know what 2 of them are doing. This morning I would like to try and blog about. I ain't quite there yet! ( but I will be )
As some of you that have ever read any of my blogs knows that I suffer from - uni polar another form of being Bi-polar, anxiety, depression, social anxiety disorder and a few other thing I wont mention in this blog because they are different subjects. I myself believe that all of us who suffer from any of these disorders are in as bad of shape, and I believe that they rate right up there as being as bad a  heart attack, strokes, heart disease, high blood pressure and so on and on. Anyone who has never suffered from depression or the others mentioned above has never woke up in the morning too it. As the Lady in the one commercal that say its like I have to wind myself up in the morning, just to get going. Well Folks for all you who have never suffered it before you rag someone who does or put down someone who does. Just watch that person.

Uni-polar,Bi-polar depression, anxiety is not an act. Those who suffer from it has to most days live behind a mask. Making everyone think that everything is going smooth and their in control, When really deep down in side all we really want to do is find a rock most days and hide and never want to come out.
All these different diseases affect people differently, some suffer through mild depression to severe depression. I believe it is easier to treat mild depression than it is severe for the reasons that, those who suffer severe depression hang on to it much longer than those who suffer mildly. I have suffered from all theses  for many years and really never knew what I was going through until I was diagnoses as to having them. I know what some of you are thinking waa waa poor pitiful him. Hey laugh at me that's fine but there are millions of people who suffer the same thing. And there are millions how die every years by not knowing what is going on inside them. Its called suicide. Yes suicide 
In most cases Different Doctors or phsyco Doctor tend to agree and disagree with weather Bi-polar and depression is Hereditary. well humm out of the 10 articles I have read on the subjest, 7 said it is and 3 said it was'nt. Friends finding the right medication's to treat the problems is a guessing game. I have been on several different medications and some help for a while and some either didn't work for me at all or made it even worse. Out of the 3 doctors who said that it wasn't hereditary. said that if those who suffered from the disease's would live a stress free life, eat a complete healthy diet, an get a good nights sleep, 8 to10 hours a night. then. that in some way would take care of most, (Get it most of the problem's. )

I would like to insert a couple of articles into this blog from some other folks who suffer.Even so, when a parent who is bipolar sees the disease manifest itself in a child, statistics don’t seem to matter anymore. It just feels as if the disease is simply hereditary.
Stacey Galka, 38, of Denver, is a single mom who was diagnosed with bipolar disorder when she was 26. At that point, her daughter was already 5 years old. Stacey says her own diagnosis was a relief because it helped her to make sense of why her life had always been so chaotic, but when her daughter was diagnosed with bipolar disorder at age 13, Stacey had trouble accepting it. “In all honesty, if I had known then what I know now, I would have never had a kid,” she says. “It was difficult enough for me to go through what I did."
Is bipolar disorder hereditary? Yes, bipolar disorder runs in families; it is the most genetic major psychiatric condition. It is more genetic than schizophrenia and major depression. If you have a parent or sibling with bipolar disorder, then there is a 10-15% likelihood that you will develop it. If you have a second-degree relative like a grandparent or aunt, then the likelihood is half that amount (5-10%).Bipolar disorder is vastly underdiagnosed. On average, it takes 20 years or until a person is almost 40 years of age, before bipolar disorder is diagnosed. Dr. Ghaemi explains that Bipolar disorder is overlooked for many reasons. Most people have a classic picture of a euphoric person as being manic. However two-thirds of manic episodes are not elated, but an irritable or depressed mood. To complicate matters, half of all people with bipolar disorder have lack of insight, so they do not even realize they are ill.
How does depression present in bipolar patients? Bipolar depression can look different in some ways from unipolar (major) depression. Symptoms that are more common in bipolar patients than in unipolar depression include:
Brief depressions. In bipolar depression, the average length is three to six months, but in unipolar depression it is six to twelve months. Some depressions are only 2 to 3 weeks in length. The shorter the depression, the more likely it is to be bipolar.
Atypical depression. You may sleep more and eat more as opposed to typical depressions where patients sleep less and eat less.
Psychotic depression. You have delusions or paranoid delusions. Or, you hear voices or see things. Psychotic depression is more common in bipolar disorder.
Post partum depression. Compared to unipolar depression, post partum depression is more common in bipolar disorder.
Recurrent depression. The more episodes of depression you have, the more likely you are to be bipolar rather than unipolar. More than 95% of bipolar patients have recurrent episodes, versus unipolar patients, of which only two-thirds have recurrent episodes.
Antidepressant effects. If you've had multiple trials of antidepressants and they don't work, you could have bipolar disorder. If you experience mania or hypomania while on an antidepressant, you usually have bipolar disorder. If you get better on an antidepressant, but then relapse into recurrent depressions, you may have bipolar disorder So see the definitions and diagnoses of the deseases vary from one to another. Friends I ain't quite there yet ( but I will be ) .
Friends as we all do who suffer from these deseases, we have our good days and bad days. And by saying some of the things in this blog, I hope to not offend any. But spend your time praying for those who are in real need. and that most important need is finding Jesus Christ as their Lord and Saviour. And making it not into the Kingdom of heaven as they think their headed. But pray that they make it into The Kingdom of GOD that will be set up upon this earth at GODS appointed time. That is the real need to be praying for. Not selfishly for me.
I would like to thank Stacy in Denver and also Dr Ghaemi for posting their articles for all to read. Thank you two very much.
Til next time Shaloam and pray for the Peace of Jerusalem
jesseb

Who needs a stinking friends ? ( not me )

Hello everyone, I will be turning 52 in the next few weeks and I really have to give God all the glory for that, It is a accomplishment I never thought I would live to see or even talk about, AND as I write this I know I haven't made it there yet, just a few more weeks. I often said that I probably wouldn't make past 25 and I guess that if I would have kept hanging around with some I hung around with, not only would I probably  wound up in prison, but probably dead. I do know this without a doubt in my mind, That God had to be with me.

There was the time when a so called friend of mine (really not much of a friend really ) we were heading down to Leander Texas one night to see one of his girl friends and we left about 2 that afternoon and we really hadn't drank all that much maybe a six pack between use, which wasn't much since we could drink a case on our own a piece, plus at the time I was going to see my girlfriend at the time who was in the Temple High Band and i didn't want her friends to think she was going with a drunk, but that's enough of that, But knowing when God is with you and you've got a stupid friend who like to take not only his life into his hands but  yours also. jeezzzzzz what an idiot, he was and I myself.

Here we are going down I-35 south headed toward Georgetown and this nut case is weaving in and out of each lane out of control even caused a few cars to leave the road way, and then a little further down the stupid  road he's riding the tail end of an 18 wheeler, then to make things funner he trys to past the truck and winds up with 3/4 of the front end of the car under the trailer, on my side. Well need it be said we stopped in Georgetown at the local Texas stop sign ( dairy queen ) ordered a D Q dude and what happens before We even get to eat. A police man came into the place and begin asking who owned the baby crap green colored station wagon. Oh yeah the one you guessed it the one who ran folks off the road run up under the 18 wheeler on my side of the stinking car. Oh and we didn't go to jail, Thank God

Right there alone is 4 instances that God has been with me for a long long time.

Then there comes a time when you don't let bad friends meet your better friends because, well it just ain't good, I had a friend we called Smiley and if you were to ever see this guy you would know why. I still think at times he's my oldest daughters dad, She use to smile just like him until she got married and had 4 kids man that will take the smile off any ones face, but now back to the blog, Smiley had a 70 Chevy Malibu convertible man it was an awesome car, and lets just say it got wrecked, and we wont say who was driving at the time and leave it at that. Well he took the motor and tranny an put it in a 71 Malibu hardtop. never did run right but was still one awesome car.

Well this bad friend in which I had met Smiley., and Smiley being the better friend that he was let this bad friend borrow his car. bad bad choice. well 2 and a half weeks later he still hadn't got his car back. Well we begin to start looking for the car because the temple police said there was nothing they could do because he loaned him or let him take his car, well after about another week of looking for the car, one night out of the blue, we spotted the bad friend with one of his badder friends getting out of a car, across from thee VA hospital, and we begin to follow them asking were the car was and the bad friend would say anything at the time, well the badder friend I guess friend gets pissed i guess and pulls a 22 or 38 out of his pants and sticks it between my eyes, was it loaded hell if I knew I just lucky he didn't pull the trigger. We found the car, they had taking it ti Miller spring and was mudding and jumping hills.

Now there are 5 instances that God has been with me a long time.

You know, If you ever in your life really ever need a friend, one that won't wrong you, Choose Jesus for he is a friend that sticketh closer than a Brother . Also Jesus said put not your trust in man, B ut put your trust in him that will and will always be there.

There are many many other thing I could go into, about God being with me along time, but I have been truly blessed, Had not God been with me throughout my child hood I probably wouldn't be here today. All the physical mental and emotional, and other abuse we went through. Its a amazing. But he did give me a few good friends to help me make it and become a not great person but a halfway decent person. Thanks Job,Darrell, Jeff, Joey, and the rest, Jesse. May God bless you all. Amen.

Who need worldly friends not Me.
Until next time  
Shalom and pray for the peace of Jerusalem
jesseb

With God all went well

Hello again friends, its me again the local Internet menace lol, I hope I'm not known as that. But again I have to give God the glory due Him this day. God gave us the opportunity once more to preach His word. It was great being in God's house once again and being under the annointing, it was glorious. After the shaking calmed down some, having not preaching for almost 9 years, the Holy Spirit did what He does best, Preach, again I have to say Glory to God in the highest.

God gave us the message to preach, "Let us enter his gates". Our text came from Psalms 100:4, let us enter His gates with thanksgiving in our hearts, enter His courts with praise, again I have to say God was and still is awesome. To some preachers, preaching to 45 people isn't such a big thing, but this little church used to have if I heard right close to one hundred and fifty members, then you know how it goes, like any other organization satan slips in and divides and destroys. its been a while since that has happened but only by the grace and mercy of God will this little Church heal and begin to grow again. 45 people ain't all bad in the world we live in today.

God let us begin our message in the book of Ezekiel 37:1-10. where God lead Ezekiel into a valley of dry bones, and in the spirit God shows him heaps of bones. God commanded Ezekiel to prophecy over the bones and as he did so God caused the bones to come to life, oh yes an exceedingly great army. Friends we are living in a time when not only is this world in trouble, but the Church world as we know it is in greater trouble. Jesus talked about a great falling away of the saints in the last days. We've been preached for over 200 years that we are living in the last days, and we would have to say that it is somewhat right, because there were and still are prophesies being fulfilled today. I believe today more than ever from the studying of Gods word and research of Biblical history, Bible scholars, and ancient world history, that the Church world has been deceived into thinking that a secret Rapture will occur, and that people have lost all hope in faith not only in Christianity, but God and His Son Jesus Christ.


I realize that the rapture means { caught away or called up } but where are you going to? heaven ( God forbid ) Friends the only time your going to go to heaven is if you were to die and go to the grave, and your spirit goes back to the Father. Jesus said no man has ascended to heaven to the Father except the one who came from the Father, the Son. Friends, Brothers and Sisters, I glory not in myself, that I preach and tell you the truth and the whole truth but God will require your blood on my hands if i don't tell you the truth. I'm trying to make it onto the 1000 year reign with Christ Jesus and take as many as we can by the Grace of God, on which the second death hath no power. I do not count myself to be a doom and gloom Preacher, God is just, fair, full of mercies upon all that will listen and hear what the spirit says.

There are so many misguided souls out there and my heart and soul cries out for them, My prayer would be and is, that people would once again turn back to God and seek his true word. not something men thought up back in 1824 and was never preached by Jesus or the Apostles. Friends, No where in the Bible (being the only true word of God we have to live by, which has never changed), does Jesus say He was going to rapture his people or church out of here before the great tribulation happens. People tend to preach and teach that even though Jesus himself said I will come as a thief, but He did not mean to mislead Christians he came to save them.

Jesus was only saying to His children TO WATCH AND BE AWARE OF WHAT IS GOING ON, THAT IT DOESN'T COME UPON UNAWARE, AS A THIEF coming in while no one is watching so will He return. Jesus used two great examples of how the world would be and what shape it would be in when he returned, As the days of Noah were before the flood Matthew 24; 37-39 But as the days of Noah was before the flood, so shall the coming of the Son be, [ 38 ] FOR IN THAT DAY BEFORE THE FLOOD THEY WERE EATING AND DRINKING, MARRYING, AND GIVING IN MARRIAGE,until the day noah entered the ark. [ 39 ] and knew not until the flood came and took it all away, so shall the coming of the Son of man be. we didn't give every verse disputing the theory, But we can.

If anyone can go into the word of God and show me where the theory of the Rapture is and pinpoint the sure word of the theory, I'll eat my Bible, it may take awhile because there's alot of food to eat in the Word of God. I'll even go as far as to say this, I'll put my Bible up against your man's theory and Gods words will never fail. We sorta got off our subject that we preached last night, but the Spirit of God that is within seems to get upset about millions of people being lead astray and mislead. And please dont take my word for it, and don't bother asking your pastor, ask the one who will never lie to you -ask God the Father to reveal the truth to you before its to late, Pleaseeeeeeee I do beg this of you friends,



But as we said we preached last night, on Let us enter his gates with thanksgiving in our hearts, friends, we need Jesus truly more now than ever. Friends, Brothers and Sisters. we need to go to the house were we can worship God in total fullness, with our whole hearts. we need to give him glory and praise ever day of the rest of our lives, before it's to late. so please consider the house of God that He places on your heart, and let the Holy Spirit move you in the worship of the Most High God. Serving God is only a small part of what we can do in return to Him who gave His Only Begotten Son, on a cross on Calvary.


well hope this make sense and will stir your hearts, not only to seek God's true Word, but also return back to Him while we may still find Him, and once you find Him, worship Him in praise and honour



TIL NEXT TIME may God bless you

jesseb

All in the name of ????

You know we wake up each morning to the precious breath of life. Many days we just rush to take a shower, have breakfast, our cups of coffee or soda and that's the way many of our lives start. Do we ever look at our loved ones and tell them just how much we really love them, or is it just a peck on the cheek and a mere love ya then we're off, to face the day. You know I have to say something about My God because He should be the most important person we wake up to each day. Did you pray when you woke up ? Did you thank Him for that precious breath of life He placed in your lungs this morning ? Or even say I love you Lord.


Every morning when we wake up we wake up to a totally different day. I may not wake up and right away tell him thank you for life, but I can say without boasting I do thank him every morning before I leave my home. It's just a small thing we can do for a Man who they hung on a Cross almost 2000 years ago. We find ourselves looking to the heavens at all of God in his splender, seeing the sun how it is set in it's place, the color of the trees this fall season and for letting me awake and He being my God.

But as we said we awake to a totally different day every day. Anymore, (not that it hasn't been around since the beginning of time, ever since Cain slew Abel), murder and killing seems to be a part of our DNA. You know it wasn't part of Gods plan for the world to be the way it is, but He gets all the blame because He created mankind. No one seems to stop and think who really is the blame for the way this world is today. We use the title of { all in the name of } for a reason. Our world has become calloused so let's blame God, because He lets all this happen. A lot of folks have no clue, who is really the blame.

No one seems to know about the war in Heaven. There were millions, hundreds of millions of angels, and certain angels had leadership of thousands of other angels, like the arch angel Micheal or the arch angel Gabriel. There was at the time one mightier than they, his name was Lucifer, he was with God before the earth was formed. Remember there was a time when this earth was dark and void and had no form, he was with God then and knew what God's true plan for mankind was. But Lucifer being the greater of the angels, along with his cohorts or angels he was in charge of, knowing God's plan thought an evil thought. (The first sign of egotism.) He knows all that there is to know about God, that God is a God of love.

After studying the subject- is the devil for real? He is literal. He, Lucifer, as we said a few lines up, along with his cohorts, (which are known as demons and unclean spirits), conspired to take over Heaven and the war was on. (which Lucifer and his band of followers lost). It says that God cast Lucifer and his angels out of Heaven and gave him dominion over all the earth. How do you think he was found in the garden of Eden? He is the very one who deceived Eve and Adam and got them kicked out of paradise. We see here that this was the first ever sin on earth to take place outside of Heaven. Rebellion, lying, deceit, and cunningness, the Bible says, that he has many names, Lucifer, the serpant, satan, shining star and so on and on.

Adam and Eve ate of the tree of knowledge and knew right from wrong, and it followed through their seed, Cain. The deception in the garden of Eden was the first evidence of Spiritual murder. { SIN }. When Cain slew Abel it was the first evidence of carnal murder. So again we ask the question, { All in the name of ????.} When God gave satan dominion over all the earth, he was set free to do what ever he wanted. You see I really don't believe that it was in God's original plan for men or women to have to labor { or work }. It wasn't in His plans for women to have to go through birthing pains { or labor pains }. His plan was for mankind to be fruitful and multiply, and bring forth children who would serve the only one true God. So just who is the blame for the world the way it is today ????


From the way I see it, mankind has brought the world to what we know it as today. Everywhere we turn in life, we see killing, stealing, adultery, coveting { folks wanting more and more}. It's all about the benjamin's anymore, drugs, alcohol, it's all about how much more can I get while the gettings good, wars and more wars. We here in America fight more wars than any other country on earth, but there are different types of wars that we don't fight here at home, we don't fight the war on hunger, homelessness, education, abortion, or even the wars the Veterans have to fight in their lives everyday. We are a sad, sad people.

I know this blog is long, and if it bothers you for being so long, you didn't have to stay and read it, lol. Friends, growing up, all I wanted was to be a Marine, but because I didn't have an education, they said no, sorry we can't use ya. I didn't want to be anything else, Not Army, Air Force or Navy, they didn't seem to me to be tough enough. Please don't get me wrong, we are fighting wars right now over seas we shouldn't be fighting, we need to be here fortifying our borders against the evil which the Bible says-they will think an evil thought, let us go up against the unwalled city, and pilfer and plunder. Friends, there are only 3 countries on earth who will always stick together. None of the others give a hoot about us, all they want is all they can get from everyone. Guess what? Satan wants more also, your life, because he knows he can't have your spirit.

Friends, this world as we know it today, we cannot blame on God. Man, with help from satan has made it what it is today. But there is coming a day very, very soon, when God will take his vengence, on satan and all his workers. ALL the abortions, baby killings, raping, murdering, all those of riches and those who oppress those who cannot help not themselves, Every sin under the sun (not Son) will be addressed. Right now it's all in the name of satan, but soon and very soon it will be in the name of Jesus.



Let he who has eyes see and those who have ears hear,



til next time just tell God how much you love him everyday, because He loves you more


thanks jesseb